Well, it's official! I'm moved in, and ready to start my RA training in the morning! It's a little overwhelming so think that I'm going to be responsible for kids and for making sure their transition to college goes smoothly and they're all taken care of. Like any new thing I do, at the front end I have my doubts.
What am I doing?
Am I cut out for this?
Will the kids like me?
Did I bite off more than I can chew?
All these things have been weighing on my heart all day, as I moved in and said goodbye to my family. I didn't cry last year when they left. I was excited for college and I had Katelyn to keep me company and take my mind off the fact that life had changed. I cried this year. I don't know. I think it's the combination of knowing my sister won't ever live at home with me again, saying goodbye to my mom and dad after spending a great summer with them, or not really having any of my friends here to keep me company. I know that in a few weeks I'll be in the swing of things and I'll look back and think, What was I worried about? But right now, I'm scared. I know it'll be a good year and God's definitely got it all in his hands but I also get nervous and doubtful. I'm excited to go to my church on Sunday and get back into that. I'm hoping to volunteer so I'm so excited that I'll be able to get more involved this year than I was before. Well, I guess I better get ready for bed. It's been a long and emotional day and training starts early tomorrow morning.
Till I write again,
Jacks!
Thought of the day: Maybe next year they shouldn't pick the hottest day of the year (112) to have kids moving in. Just a thought :)
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