It seems the answers are never clear

Hey Guys! I don't know how many of you are friends with me on Facebook that look at this (I'm gonna go out on a limb and say all are... I'm not thinking I have some following from randos. Which is completely ok. Ha.) Anyway, Here's a quick update in case any of you saw my status that read something along the lines of "hearing back from Sturgis just made my life much more complicated"- I received an email from the first study abroad grant I applied for as was awarded $2,500. Which is really good! Praise the Lord for his provision in letting me get that money, but it also complicated things. I told my CRE I'd let her know if I'm coming back as an RA after I hear about this scholarship because I felt it would give me a good guestimate of how much I'd be left to cover, which at this point is over $10,000 out of pocket. Seeing as I don't have that and the deadline for the other honors application is in October I won't fully know where I'm at until way after I need to tell my CRE I'm coming back or not. So anyway. Now begins long days of prayer as I wrestle with if I'm going to study abroad or come back as an RA. So if you could please just pray for clarity in that- that God's will will be extremely evident in all this that'd be wonderful.

This goes back to what I feel like God's been revealing to me lately- That he yearns to give me the desires of my heart and often times I don't even know what that is until he lets me know. I know that I've been longing to study abroad for a long time and have been looking forward to this opportunity. However, I've also been incredibly blessed this year as an RA and feel completely confident that this has been God's plan- I just don't know for how long he planned on my being here. (Neon signs or the clouds morphing into my answer would be great right about now.) Either way, I'm sure next year will hold even more amazing things to discover and everything, I just feel such a weight in trying to figure out what exactly it holds. As I asked before, please keep me in your prayer, they're so greatly appreciated.

Till I write again!
Jacks

P.s. Here's a canvas I painted this weekend. I'm kinda proud of it- which is why it's basically been posted everywhere. Haha